1 year...12 months...52 weeks...365 days...8760 hours...525600 minutes
It goes by so slowly... it goes by so quickly... It's amazing what one year can do, change and bring about... These past twelve months have changed everything, it's been the most difficult, emotionally draining yet powerful year of my life... Ive been stretched further, pusher deeper and grown more than i ever thought possible...
A year ago the plans I had made for my life looked very different from where I stand today... God opened some doors, he made possibilities where I assumed impossibilities... God also closed doors that I had been so sure he opened for me... When a door get slammed in your face it hurts, its confusing, and also frustrating when you keep trying to open it and its locked...
This year brought me to my knees in a desperation like Ive never experienced before, I remember crying one night and telling God "I cant do this anymore! It hurts too much and I'm tired, soo tired of everything. I give up!" And God was like "you're right, YOU cant do this... without me you cant do anything... don't you see Ive been waiting for you to give up and let go so that I can step in." God used heartbreak to bring me to a place where I truly 100% needed him, for the first time in my life I wasn't strong enough...
It has been humbling and overwhelming to watch God begin to heal and transform my heart and bring such strength and faith from what I had originally thought to be unfixable...
Im excited to see what God has in store for the next 12 months and this time Im making no plans and just letting God take control :)
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ReplyDeleteI'm so glad to know that you are doing well. It's amazing what we can learn in just one moment with Christ...a whole year? whew! Seeing this make me feel very convicted and even though it's a tough reality that i'm in no way as strong as I think I am, it's very reassuring to remember- duh! I don't have to!
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I'm SO awful at keeping in touch, and I really should be better, but this was such a nice reminder to say hi- so hi!
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Amen... preach it Linds! J/k, but really that was so honest, convicting, and soooo true! I can't wait to see what God does not only in my life, but yours as well! I'm sure He as sooooo many blessings in store for you... hold onto your seat! :) Love ya and miss ya... hope to see you in 90 days (if not sooner).
ReplyDeleteI remember talking to you this week last year (You may not remember)and this too has been the weirdest year of my life. Also the most difficult. Sometimes I wonder why it seems so easy for some people to navigate through life and others have to go through so much. At the same time I know God is faithful. I wish I had the answers and could see the future but at the same time I'd prolly kill myself if I could. Saying we trust God and then actually doing it are two completely different things.
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