I've since grown out of my nightlight phase and though I might not be afraid of physical darkness anymore... the unknown, the unplanned, the uncontrolled... still scares me. So when life doesn't go the way I think its gonna go, when plans get altered or dreams shattered I look out and suddenly my future becomes very dark... and scary...
This is where trusting God comes in... As a control freak trusting God with my life is probably my biggest struggle... It always amazes me how my plans never seem to be part of Gods plan.
Speaking
from personal experience when God says NO it hurts and its confusing...
and its scary because once again everything gets dark. There were days I just wanted to scream "God what are you doing? I don't
understand why! Don't you love me?" It took me a long time to understand the answer to that question is YES, God does loves me,
more than I can even imagine and sometimes him showing his love means
saying no to things I want or plans that I might have... I came to a point where I knew I
had to make a decision, I could get bitter at God for not giving me
what I wanted or I could trust God that he knew what he was doing and
believe that his plans were better than mine... I chose trust... as hard as it is sometimes God is so faithful, like SO faithful! Understanding his faithfulness gives me hope and
confidence in God's plan, his timing, his promises...
To him my future isnt dark at all! he
sees everything and how it all works out, he just hasn't turned the nightlight on for me yet and that's ok because with God I don't need one :)
So... Are You Afraid of the Dark?
