summer 2010 memories...

summer...acceptance into the LPN program... Esther's 1st birthday... Prescott conference: awesome week filled with friends and god settling my unstable foundation...Bethany getting engaged... Debbie's wedding!... going blond... a multitude of beach days... nickerson campfires... rope swings... hot air balloon festival... ballet lessons... joy and peace finally restored... Lindsey and Ashley moving to the cape... morality parade/celebrate America... moving home... Rochester trip!... museum of play... Niagara falls... Jacksonville...

Flawed Perfection...

Created in the image Christ... This fact is overwhelming. God is amazing, loving, perfect... indescribable. 
    God loves us so much he created our very essence to be like him. Even as a perfectionist I'm so flawed when it comes to being Christ like. I think sometimes in the effort of being "Christ like" we get more distracted on the being perfect part rather than having the heart of Jesus. Sometimes when were good at following rules we focus on that and drift away from the reason behind following certain rules which is our love for God. 
   Its so frustrating how easy it is to get distracted! I have a confession to make, I started nursing school school exactly one month ago and since then my quiet time with God has taken a beating. With full time school, clinical, early mornings, multiple exams a week and endless hours of studying I can honestly say I have been distracted and I didn't even realize it until two days ago when I opened up my one year bible (which was hidden under a mound of books in the back seat of my car) and the bookmark was still in Sept 30, I couldn't believe it, I was like have I really not read my bible in a month!?   
   Realizing this brought clarity to why Ive been so unsettled in my spirit and grumpy. I kept assuming it was stress from school which is probably what the exhaustion is from but not all the other emotions Ive been feeling.
   Of course on the outside I look like Ive got it all together and physically my actions and life haven't changed at all but on the inside Ive been an emotional mess and overwhelmed by everything, it was like I couldnt get control but nothing was even out of control. 
   Lets just say Ive learned a valuable lesson from the most stressful month of my life... Don't get distracted, make time to stay close to God, remember we were created in his image so that's what we should strive for, to have his heart not just actions.
this has been an honest reflection... signing out now :)