1 year...12 months...52 weeks...365 days...8760 hours...525600 minutes
It goes by so slowly... it goes by so quickly... It's amazing what one year can do, change and bring about... These past twelve months have changed everything, it's been the most difficult, emotionally draining yet powerful year of my life... Ive been stretched further, pusher deeper and grown more than i ever thought possible...
A year ago the plans I had made for my life looked very different from where I stand today... God opened some doors, he made possibilities where I assumed impossibilities... God also closed doors that I had been so sure he opened for me... When a door get slammed in your face it hurts, its confusing, and also frustrating when you keep trying to open it and its locked...
This year brought me to my knees in a desperation like Ive never experienced before, I remember crying one night and telling God "I cant do this anymore! It hurts too much and I'm tired, soo tired of everything. I give up!" And God was like "you're right, YOU cant do this... without me you cant do anything... don't you see Ive been waiting for you to give up and let go so that I can step in." God used heartbreak to bring me to a place where I truly 100% needed him, for the first time in my life I wasn't strong enough...
It has been humbling and overwhelming to watch God begin to heal and transform my heart and bring such strength and faith from what I had originally thought to be unfixable...
Im excited to see what God has in store for the next 12 months and this time Im making no plans and just letting God take control :)
